Tiger Toes Two

“Bridge-players tell me that there must be some money on the game ‘or else people won’t take it seriously.’ Apparently it’s like that. Your bid - for God or no God, for a good God or the Cosmic Sadist, for eternal life or nonentity - will not be serious if nothing much is staked on it. And you will never discover how serious it was until the stakes are horribly high; until you find that you are not playing for counters or for sixpences but for every penny you have in the world. Nothing less will shake a man - or at any rate a man like me - out of his merely verbal thinking and his merely notional beliefs. He has to be knocked silly before he comes to his senses. Only torture will bring out the truth. Only under torture does he discover himself.” 

- C.S. Lewis

A consistent prayer of mine is that God molds me into a better man, but 99.9% of the time I mistake him being faithful as unwanted hardships. You don’t grow without growing pains. There’s certain battles in my life that’s always been a losing fight. Im not convinced I’ll ever get the upper hand. I just know there’s a’lot of room for improvement.

I’m listening to “Music For A Forgotten Future” (Mogwai) while enjoying the beautiful summer night.

I don’t know anything about anything. A disturbing, but yet another reason to add a check to why I need God.

I hope all is well with whoever stumbles on this.

- James Garrett Cavarretta

In like sin.